Survey

So I got an "invite" to take the company survey this year (as I have every year, even on "pulse" years where not everyone takes it), and let me tell you, there's nothing like a good survey to really show you how stuck in a rut you are. Do you feel like the company uses your skills? Ha! No. Do you feel like you can reach your potential? Um, no. Does your supervisor nurture your skills? No. My skills don't really fit the company, and my goals have nothing to do with the company's.

It's like they expect their entire employee population to follow behind them like blind lemmings into the sea. My workplace does not define my identity, and what I do for money does not define my life and goals. Can I ever reach my potential in those walls? Absolutely not. I never will. Not in this company, and nothing they do can propel me to what I would consider any level of success.

I know this makes for a second bitter post about my workplace, but I suppose after several years of working here, I'm finally hitting the point where I'm just like "Now what?" I know where I'm (not) going here, and I know I'm just going to keep (not) doing that. All of that just serves to accentuate the fact that I'm utterly failing in the career I really want that I continue to strive for.

The saddest part of this is that this is still the best job I've ever had, and I sure don't want to go anywhere else. The company has me where they want me because I'm stuck. I have no future outside of this company unless I can write. And then, what break I did take for lunch was interrupted by a series of stupid questions.

It's going to be a long afternoon.